I still remember going in for pre-op for the bi-lateral mastectomy for my breast cancer on April 14th, 2014 and thinking I would have blood work, talk to some people and be done, even though, they went over it with me beforehand. It’s amazing how much information you forget when you are going through a difficult situation.
After blood work, EKG and that stuff, they sent me for the lymposcintigraphy…….yeah, I can’t say it either. What it was going to do is put a needle in the left breast where they found the tumor and then inject liquid and then an hour later, they check on the machine (MRI I think……again, it’s all a blur) to be sure they could see the “liquid” draining into the lymph nodes. They do this so that the next day when they go in to do surgery, they could see where the “liquid” drained to and then check that lymph node for cancer.
Being there that day, I was still in a daze, knowing that the next day, my life would change, in many ways. I would be different, inside and out, good and bad. I also had a strange calmness over me, knowing that I was in the exact right place and I had the right doctors and I can honestly say it was a time where I actually felt Gods peace over me. My head was scattered and would think a mile a minute and at one point I even told Aaron where I had the will.
Aaron would not even listen to me, he reminded me of our blessing from our marriage and that it had not been fulfilled yet and that God had lots left to do with both of us. So, I pushed all that negativity to the side, trusted in my husband and in God and knew that everything would be okay. I would wake up, my surgery would go better then even the doctors could imagine and that I would watch all three of my boys grow up, get married and have kids of their own. The more I thought these thoughts and proclaimed them, the more peace and belief I had in my heart.
Getting ready for any surgery can be difficult and when we have someone around us who encourages us and reminds us of what we should be focusing on, it can make all the difference in the world. I’m so beyond thankful that Aaron was such a rock during all the appointments and procedures. He kept everything light hearted and fun and it was EXACTLY what I needed in that storm.